My life has been crazy lately and I’ve had little to no time to write. This equals out to depression because I want to write, I just can’t because everything is in the way.
As many of you know, I started a part time job in March, but it has turned into a full time job recently. This has left me with no time to write. Hell, I barely see my family!
When I’m at home all I want to do is sleep because I’ve been working 43-50 hours a week (nights). During the day — while my hub is at work and my son was in school — I normally write because I’m not getting bugged every 5-10 minutes with someone else’s wants or needs. Now I sleep during that time because there is no other time to do so. (My son’s last day of school is today, so now he’ll be home all the time. I’ll prolly get more writing done and less sleep since he’ll be here to entertain me.)
Many people ask how writers balance their job, their family, and their writing. I’m here to tell you that it’s hard and all about the mix. You have to want to do it. If you don’t want it bad enough, you’ll never getting anything writing related done (at least if you’re putting your family first).
The other night I had off work. Since my sleeping schedule is messed up from working, I was awake in the middle of the night. Instead of laying in bed and tossing and turning, I got up and managed to write 895 words. It wasn’t much, but it was more than I’d written at one time in over two weeks. (I’d written part of a poem a couple days before, but I think that only came to around 200 words…)
I know that I can fit in writing and accomplish something, even though the going is slower now. Things are supposed to calm down at work and I should be back to part time soon. The fact of the matter though, is that I want to write and I’m not willing to give it up. I’ll find a way to get it done. I’ll find my balance in the craziness that is my life! Until then, I’ll take the few minutes I have here and there to get some kind of writing done (like this blog post! LOL).
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