The Heart of Heroism
By Rebecca Besser
“Take that crap off!” Mr. Harper yelled. “Why are you always dressing up in stupid outfits? If I ever catch you out wearing something like that, I’m gonna burn all of your comic books! Every last, damn one!”
“S…s…sorry, Dad,” Billy Jack said, pouting as he shuffled back to his bedroom. He stopped just inside the door and looked at himself in his mirror. The aluminum foil he’d used to make a lightning bolt on the chest of his red flannel union suit twinkled in the overhead light and made him smile with delight. He giggled. Running his hands over the B and J he’d cut out of stick-on felt and applied to the suit on either side of the bolt, he imagined himself as a real live superhero. “Super Billy Jack,” he said with a sigh.
“Hurry up!” his dad yelled. “We have work to do and I don’t have time for any of your shit!”
Billy Jack’s bottom lip quivered and tears welled up in his big, blue eyes as he peeled his costume off and slipped on a worn, stained pair of blue jeans and a plain, dark blue T-shirt; the cloth of the T-shirt stretched to its limits over the bulky muscles of his chest. He sniffed loudly, looked at himself in the mirror again, and rubbed his eyes with his knuckles like an upset toddler.
“Are you ready yet, you dumb oaf?” his dad yelled.
“Y…y…yes,” Billy Jack answered, and hurried back out to the living room of their tiny, basement apartment. “I’m ready to w…w…work. What’s broken t…t…today?”
His father didn’t answer right away. He just stared up at his mammoth son who towered over him with his six foot, four-inch height.
“Were you crying?” he asked Billy Jack. “Were you crying like a little sissy baby again?”
Billy Jack bit his lip and shook his head, fidgeting with the front of his shirt, stretching it to the point the material was see through.
“Yes, you were,” his dad said, scowling. “You have to quit acting like that, and you have to quit dressing up in those prissy outfits. Do you want people to make fun of you?”
Billy Jack sniffled and twisted his shirt nervously. “N…n…no. I just want to b…b…be a superhero.”
Mr. Harper growled and ran a hand over his balding head. “You’re never going to be a superhero! You’re just a stupid nobody and always will be!” He sighed and shook his head. “Get your tool box. We have some plumbing to fix on the ninth floor.”
“The n…n…ninth?” Billy Jack asked, letting go of his shirt and knuckling his eyes again. “Can I v…v…visit Mike? He’s my bestest friend in the w…w…world.”
Mr. Harper groaned. “Yeah, you can visit your friend if you do a good job, but if you give me any trouble, you won’t be allowed.” He yanked open the door to their apartment and stomped out into the hall, throwing an impatient glance back at his son.
Billy Jack shuffled forward and lifted the red, four drawer tool box sitting beside the door without much effort. He rushed out into the hall, following his dad, almost tripping himself in his hurry.
“Shut the door!” his dad hollered over his shoulder, stomping down the hall toward the elevator.
“O…o…okay, sorry,” Billy Jack mumbled and turned, shutting the door before advancing down the hall as fast as he could. Without noticing, he started fidgeting with the hem of his shirt, twisting and tugging it out of proportion. Just as he reached the elevator, where his dad was waiting, the cold, metal door slid open with a dull ding.
“Up we g…g…go!” Billy Jack said, grinning. “Can I push the b…b…button, Dad?”
Mr. Harper sighed. “Sure.” He stepped inside without looking at his son and slumped against the back wall.
“Yeah!” Billy Jack screamed, practically bouncing into the elevator. He pressed the appropriate button—the one with an L on it for lobby; they would get off there and use the stairs the rest of the way. There were other elevators in the building leading higher, but most of them were out of service because the building owner didn’t consider fixing them worth the money. Mr. Harper always referred to him as a “Slum Lord.”
In just a few seconds the door was dinging open to present the small, dingy, poorly lit lobby. It held the tenants little, square mailboxes along the far wall, which were covered in gang graffiti. Billy Jack thought it was beautiful and mystical, appearing out of nowhere after he’d scrub it off once a month. He imagined something magical lived inside the bank of mailboxes and it would reveal itself a little at a time. When he washed it, he pretended the turpentine he used was a drug that put it to sleep for a time. Today, it was freshly painted with bright green and orange spray paint.
“The b…b…beast is awake,” he whispered and stepped out of the elevator cautiously, pressing his body tight against the wall, watching the mailboxes across from him like they were going to swallow him alive.
Mr. Harper rolled his eyes and stepped out of the elevator, shaking his head. He ignored Billy Jack and walked to the stairwell, opened the door, and went inside, letting the door swing closed behind him.
“No!” Billy Jack screamed and ran forward, ripping the door open and entering the stairwell too, pulling the door tightly shut behind himself, breathing heavily.
His dad laughed and ascended the first flight of stairs.
“It’s n…n…not funny, Dad,” Billy Jack said breathlessly, and pouted. “You’d f…f…feel bad if the monster a…a…ate me.”
“I would miss you so,” his dad responded sarcastically.
Billy Jack smiled, thinking his dad really meant it and hurried up the stairs after him. “Who’s p…p…plumbing is broken?”
Mr. Harper sighed. “Mrs. Willis’s again.”
“She’s a n…n…nice lady,” Billy Jack said, struggling with the tool box in the narrow stairwell, but keeping up nonetheless. “S…s…she makes good cookies.”
“Yes, she does,” his dad replied absently, limping slightly. He’d injured his knee when he was younger and it bothered him more and more as he grew older, and having to traverse many flights of stairs on a daily basis didn’t help either. The pain it caused made him wish he was sitting downstairs in his recliner, drinking beer.
They made it to the landing of the fifth floor and Mr. Harper inwardly groaned. It was the one with the different colored tiles, because he’d had to replace some a few years back. He braced himself for what he knew was coming.
“Dad!” Billy Jack cried out. “Be c…c…careful! Only step on the white and b…b…blue tiles. The red o…o…ones will wake the d…d…dragon!”
Mr. Harper growled and marched around to his right to the next flight of stairs. Behind him he could hear the metallic rattle of the tools in the tool box as Billy Jack bounced it while trying to hop from one small square to another, missing the red ones that made up most of the floor; he reached the stairs with a sigh of relief.
“Dad, y…y…you should be more careful,” Billy Jack admonished with solemn eyes. “S…s…someday the dragon m…m…might get you. You’re l…l…lucky I know the r…r…right tile combination to l…l…lock his cage back up.”
“It’s thoughtful of you to save my life,” his dad said, and continued to climb, wincing in pain as his limp became more pronounced.
They made it to the ninth floor of the “castle” as Billy Jack called it. It was easier for his mind to wrap itself around the occurrences and the strange people in his living environment to think of it that way. He pretended the building was a cursed castle and he was the only one who would know how to save it when the curse became too strong for everyone else. Super Billy Jack would save the day! He didn’t realize he lived in the middle of the slums and most people living in the building were drug dealers, users, or prostitutes, and that was why they acted the way they did.
Mrs. Willis’s plumbing didn’t take long to fix and soon Billy Jack was standing outside apartment 947, waiting for someone to answer his insistent knock. He fidgeted with his shirt, twisting it this way and that while he glanced at the hall around him, imagining all kinds of sinister things lurking in the shadows.
He jumped when the door opened.
“Oh, it’s you,” a woman with ratty hair, smeared makeup, and a cigarette in her hand said. “Mike! Your friend’s here to see you!” she screamed as smoke waft from her nose and mouth; she walked away, leaving the door standing wide open.
Billy Jack smiled nervously, still glancing around him and twisting his shirt.
Mike’s little, smiling face appeared from around the corner and his fear melted away.
“Billy Jack,” the five-year-old boy squealed, and wrapped his arms around Billy Jack’s leg, hugging it tight in his skinny arms. He looks up at his big friend hopefully. “Did you come to play?”
He nodded and let the little boy pull him inside by his pant leg, shutting the door quickly behind them to keep the monsters out.
“I w…w…was a good w…w…worker today,” Billy Jack said. “So, I was a…a…allowed to come and v…v…visit you!”
“Goodie,” Mike said cheerfully. “I have a new toy!”
“Really?” Billy Jack asked. “What i…i…is it?”
“I show you!” Mike squealed, and darted toward his bedroom with his big friend trailing after him.
Billy Jack made it to the door to see Mike proudly holding two small plastic boxes with thick, black wires sticking out of the tops.
“Walk-me, talk-mes!” Mike yelled, waving them at Billy Jack. “My daddy gave them to me. He came to see me.”
“Th…th…those are very nice,” Billy Jack said solemnly. “What d…d…do they do?”
“I show you,” Mike said, sitting on the edge of the bed and twisting the knobs on the tops of the plastic boxes, causing brief bursts of static noise to come from each of them; he handed one to Billy Jack. “You sit!” he ordered, and pointed to his bed as he stood. “I’ll hide in the closet.”
“Okay,” Billy Jack said, sitting on the edge of Mike’s tiny bed; it groaned under his two hundred plus pounds.
Mike giggled and darted across his room and into his closet, closing the door behind him. “Test, test, one, two, three…”
Billy Jack jumped as Mike’s voice came blaring out of the plastic box in his hand. He held it closer to his face, almost pressing his nose against it while he took a better look at the device. “H…h…how’d you get i…i…in there, Mike?” he asked the part with the little holes and heard a giggle come from the closet.
Mike opened the door and peered out at Billy Jack with a broad smile on his face. “I not in it, silly. I do this!” He pressed down the button on the side of the plastic box and talked into it again, rubbing his lips on the speaker because he was holding it too close to his mouth. “Test, test, one, two, three…” He giggled again and shut the door, hiding once more. “You do it! You do it!” came out of the box Billy Jack held.
He grinned and pressed down the button, holding the walkie-talkie close to his mouth. “H…h…i there, Mike. How’s th…th…things in the closet?”
Mike squealed with laughter.
They played for hours, taking turns going into the closet and outside the bedroom, talking to each other through their own secret system.
Billy Jack was stepping back into Mike’s room after his turn in the hall when he spotted the clock on the dresser. He gasped.
“Oh, n…n…no!” he exclaimed. “I’m l…l…late! My dad is going to be m…m…mad. I have to g…g…go. B…b…bye, Mike!”
He turned and rushed down the short hallway and out of the apartment. The halls and stairwells were dark in the early evening; the light coming through the barred window on each level was weak. Multiple times he tripped and almost fell down the stairs, but caught himself at the last moment with a cry of alarm. A few people were in the stairwell, a couple with guns and suitcases, but he just pushed past them, focused on getting home. He ignored their shouts of “Watch where you’re going, dummy!” and kept on running.
By the time he reached the basement, he was whimpering and tugging on the front of his shirt with both hands, twisting it nervously. He was so focused on getting home he didn’t notice he was tearing the shirt apart at the seams.
Finally his hand reached out and gripped the doorknob, trying to turn it. It didn’t move. He cried out and then whimpered repeatedly trying harder to turn the knob.
The door suddenly flew open to reveal his dad standing there in a white tank top and his jeans, with a beer in his hand.
“Did you get lost?” he sneered as he lifted the bottle and took a deep swill of beer.
“N…n…no, Dad,” Billy Jack muttered, looking down at the floor, tugging at his shirt. “I took t…t…too long and am l…l…late. I’m s…s…sorry.”
Mr. Harper watched his son for a moment. “Where’s the tool box? You were supposed to bring it back down with you.”
Billy Jack went still for a moment with a shocked, scared expression on his face. “I f…f…forgot.”
“Well, you better go back up there and get it,” his dad growled, “because you aren’t coming in here without it!” He stepped back and slammed the door in his son’s face.
Tears poured from Billy Jack’s eyes as he staggered back down the hall and toward the elevator. He pressed the button with no pleasure; his dad was mad at him and he was drinking, which was never a good combination. Gasping for breath between sobs, he climbed back onto the elevator and rode up to the lobby. From there his journey was uneventful and he didn’t even play his game on the fifth floor landing.
He was still crying when he reached Mrs. Willis’s apartment; she answered shortly after his first knock.
“Billy Jack, I was wondering if you were comin’ back for the tool box,” she said. “Why are you cryin’, honey?”
“I f…f…forgot to come get the t…t…tool box and was l…l…late going home,” he said, sniffling loudly. “Dad i…i…is mad at m…m…me.”
“Ah, honey,” she said, stepping forward to give him a hug. “It’ll be all right. I have your tool box right here and you’ll soon be home all safe and sound. Your daddy was probably just worried about you.”
Billy Jack whimpered and hugged the woman back, loving the way it felt to have someone care about him.
“Th…th…thank you, Mrs. Willis,” he said, sniffling again and stepping back. “I h…h…have to go now, b…b…before Dad gets more a…a…angry.”
She patted his cheek and smiled, letting him step inside and retrieve the tool box that was sitting out of the way in the kitchen. “You be careful goin’ back downstairs,” she said as he left. “There’s some mean folks around here and they would take advantage of a sweet, handsome boy like you.”
“I w…w…will,” he said, wiping the last of the tears from his face. “G…g…good night, Mrs. Willis.”
“Good night, honey,” she said, smiling as she closed the door behind him.
When the door clicked shut Billy Jack felt alone and scared. Not of the people Mrs. Willis had mentioned, but of his dad and what he would do for punishment; Billy Jack never liked his punishments.
He descended the stairs slower this time, dreading going home. Watching every step as he went down in the now almost completely dark stairwell, he felt something hit his foot on the third floor landing, where he’d bumped into the angry men earlier in his rush. He bent down and felt around on the floor with his hand and found a smooth, square-ish object. He picked it up and held it close to his face, squinting to see. It was one of Mike’s walkie-talkies! He frowned, wondering how it had gotten there and realized after a few moments he’d left Mike’s apartment with it and must have dropped it when he bumped into the men.
He turned around and thought about taking it back to Mike’s, but shook his head. It was too late now, Mike would be in bed, and Mike’s mom scared him; she was mean when Billy Jack showed up too late or she didn’t want him around. With a shrug he decided to take it home with him and give it back the next day.
Turning, he continued his descent and soon reached the basement once again. He trudged down the hall, now tired from going up and down the stairs so many times. Without even trying the knob on the door, he knocked, knowing from experience that it was locked; the door was ripped open instantly.
His dad stood there once again, but this time he was swaying slightly and holding onto the door for support. He glanced down at the tool box Billy Jack was carrying.
“Tool box, good,” he said, and staggered backwards, almost falling on the floor.
Billy Jack didn’t say anything. He just stepped inside and sat the tool box by the door where it always sat when not in use. He closed the door and locked it and then went to his room, noticing as he left the living room his dad had made it to his recliner in front of the TV, which was on; he sighed and opened another beer.
Flipping his light on, Billy Jack noticed right away the shelf in his bedroom—across from the door—was empty. His comic books were gone! His heart started pounding and his hands started shaking. He grabbed ahold of his already mutilated shirt and tugged on it hard; the sound of it ripping fell on deaf ears, going unnoticed.
“Dad!” he cried, running back out to the living room. “Someone t…t…took my c…c…comic books!”
His dad laughed, looking over and up at his son with a smirk. “Yeah, I did,” he said. “You were late and you didn’t bring the tool box, so I burned them.” He shrugged drunkenly and turned his attention back to the TV.
“N…n…no!” Booby Jim screamed at the top of his lungs, tugging his shirt at the same time, ripping it off of his body. He started crying and couldn’t talk. Turning abruptly, he ran into his room, slammed the door behind him, and threw himself on his bed, sobbing hysterically.
He lay that way for almost an hour, with his huge body shaking from sobs, but finally fell asleep.
~ * ~
A loud noise woke Billy Jack suddenly and he blinked in confusion at the brightness of his room; he rolled over to see the light was still on. From beyond his door he heard thumping and his dad screaming. Quickly, he got up and went to investigate.
“Dad, are y…y…you okay?” he asked tentatively, still timid after what had happened earlier that evening.
His dad didn’t answer, but he could hear low growling and grunting noises, and when he turned the corner to get a view of the living room he saw the source. A strange man was kneeling over the prone body of his dad, feasting upon his guts; his face was buried deep in Mr. Harper’s stomach.
“What are y…y…you doing to my d…d…dad?” he yelled, his hands balling into fists.
The man turned and looked in Billy Jack’s direction with cloudy eyes; he hissed at Billy Jack and went back to eating.
“S…s…stop!” Billy Jack yelled, and stepped forward, kicking the strange man in the stomach, knocking him over and away from his dad and into the open apartment door, slamming it shut.
The man roared in anger, sending drops of blood flying from his lips and teeth. He charged at Billy Jack with his hands raised and his fingers bent into claws.
“No!” Billy Jack screamed, and punched the man across the face as hard as he could.
The man’s head jerked to the side with the force of the blow and Billy Jack heard a wet snap as the man’s neck broke; the man fell to the floor and didn’t move anymore.
Turning back to his dad, Billy Jack started to panic. He reached down to grab ahold of his shirt while he tried to figure out what to do, only to realize he wasn’t wearing one. His hands started to shake as he tried to process the situation. His dad wasn’t moving and he didn’t know what to do or who to tell.
“R…r…rest,” he said, nodding his head. “Rest m…m…makes sick people b…b…better.”
He picked up his dad’s bloody body and took him into the master bedroom. He carefully laid him down on the bed and covered him with a blanket that was lying folded across the bottom.
Billy Jack knelt down on the floor beside the bed and held his dad’s hand in his larger ones, occasionally reaching up to stroke his forehead.
“Y…y…you’ll feel better s…s…soon, Dad,” he whispered. “You j…j…just need rest.”
In moments Billy Jack thought he saw results from the resting as Mr. Harper’s eyes fluttered open and a low moan escaped his partially parted lips.
“Dad? Y…y…you feel better?” Billy Jack asked, standing. “C…c…can I get you anything?”
Mr. Harper didn’t answer, he just groaned and turned his cloudy eyes toward Billy Jack and that’s when he knew something wasn’t right; the man who’d attacked his dad had eyes like that.
Clawing viciously at the blanket, trying to get free, Mr. Harper’s jaw snapped open and shut, clicking loudly.
“Dad?” Billy Jack asked in a voice that could have passed for a child’s. “What’s w…w…wrong with y…y…you?”
His dad didn’t answer, but broke free of the blanket to stand. Blood gushed from his open stomach, carrying his intestines with it. They splashed onto the scuffed, hardwood floor with a squish. He stepped forward, into his own mess, slipping slightly, but righting himself again with the help of the bed. He advanced toward Billy Jack, sniffing loudly and moaning.
Billy Jack backed away and bumped against a stand a TV was sitting on, knocking the TV off; the screen shattered on the floor. He became more flustered and tried to pick up the TV and put it back.
“I’m s…s…sorry, Dad,” he gushed. “I d…d…didn’t mean to b…b…break your TV.”
Mr. Harper’s hand fell heavily on Billy Jack’s shoulder, and he stood and turned to face his father, who hissed menacingly in his face. He lunged at Billy Jack, trying to bite him.
Billy Jack screamed and fell backwards as he instinctively dodged the bite, falling into the glass; it cut into his back and side, but he didn’t notice as his fear was focused on his sick parent.
“Why are y…y…you trying to e…e…eat me?” he whimpered, sitting up slightly and scooting backwards on his butt.
Mr. Harper roared and lunged at Billy Jack, who brought his arms up to defend himself, knocking his dad hard in the chin and off of him. Frantically, he grabbed at things around him as his dad pounced him once more. He lifted a large piece of glass and shoved it upward. It went in through the bottom of his dad’s chin at an angle, sinking deep into his head and brain.
Mr. Harper went still with a gurgle.
Billy Jack shoved his dad’s body off of himself and took deep, sobbing breaths. He didn’t understand why his dad had tried to bite him. He’d thought his dad loved him, but now he wasn’t so sure.
Sitting up, he looked around the room, noticing he’d knocked the door of the TV stand open when he’d bumped into it. Some misplaced impulse made it impossible for him not to fix it; normally he would get in trouble for not closing doors. Rising up on his knees, he crawled through the glass toward it, noting for the first time he was hurt. As his hand met the dark, painted wood, he eyes caught sight of something bright and colorful inside. Frowning, he opened the door further to find his comic books stacked inside. A grin spread across his blood spattered face. Dad did love me, he thought, glancing at the dead body on the floor to his right with an ache in his heart. All he’d ever heard from his father were mean things: how dumb he was; how Billy Jack’s mother had left because she couldn’t handle living with a child like him; how hard his life was trying to provide for him and meet his “special” needs; and how he couldn’t have a life because what woman would want anything to do with the father of a big dummy like him. But deep down, in spite of everything, his dad really, truly had loved him, and to Billy Jack, the comic books proved it.
“Daddy,” Billy Jack whimpered and turned, lifting his dad’s body into his arms, hugging it tight, weeping. “I l…l…love you.” He cried and rocked his dad’s body for a long time, before he laid the body back onto the bed.
He went down the hall and into the bathroom and was about to use the toilet when he noticed how filthy he was; he was completely covered in blood. Freaking out slightly, he stripped off his clothes as fast as he could and climbed into the shower, screaming as the water hit his wounds when he turned it on. He pulled out all the shards of glass he could, but he couldn’t reach them all. They didn’t really hurt unless the water hit them directly, so he didn’t worry about them. After cleaning himself, he stepped out of the shower and toweled dry, realizing for the first time he didn’t have any clothes to put on and he’d have to go to his room to get some.
Cautiously, he opened the bathroom door, half-expecting another scary person to jump out of nowhere and try to bite him, but the apartment was silent. Just as he was stepping out into the hall the sound of static behind him made him jump and cry out, clutching his chest in fear.
“Billy Jack?” came a faint, young voice from his bloody pants.
He walked slowly over to them and stared down at them, frowning. Why are my pants talking? he wondered.
The voice spoke again, making him jump back in surprise.
“Billy Jack? It’s Mike. I’m scared. Mommy is acting funny and is trying to bite me. Help!”
“The w…w…walkie-talkie!” Billy Jack exclaimed. He reached forward and picked up his pants, frantically searching them until he found the toy he’d mistakenly taken from his friend’s house. Pressing the button he spoke into it, “Mike! I’ll c…c…come rescue y…y…you!”
“Hurry!” Mike’s little voice cried.
“I’m c…c…coming!” Billy Jack screamed into the speaker on the plastic box, shaking it hard when he didn’t get a response. “Oh, n…n…no! I c…c…can’t hear you anymore, Mike!” He turned knobs, pressed the button and shook the walkie-talkie, but didn’t get a response.
No longer caring he was naked, or he was bloody again from handling his pants, Billy Jack darted through the apartment and into his bedroom. Without hesitation he put on the superhero uniform he’d made, and in his mind he became Super Billy Jack, savior of all who lived in the cursed castle. He would save his little friend and save the day.
First he put on his red flannel union suit with the lightning bolt and the letters B and J on the chest. Next he slipped on the bright green galoshes he’d bought with his allowance money. Lastly, he put on his hat. It was a multicolored beanie with a little propeller on top that would keep the cursed castle keepers from reading his thoughts; he’d attached a strip of material with holes where his eyes were, to the front, to hang down over his face and protect his identity.
Proudly he stood admiring himself in the mirror for a moment with his feet wide apart and his fists on his hips.
“Super Billy Jack t…t…to the rescue!” he yelled, and dashed out of his bedroom.
He paused for a moment at the door of the apartment, remembering his dad said he shouldn’t go out dressed like he was or he would take his comic books. But he knew his dad wasn’t coming back this time and he wouldn’t take his comic books again, so with a grin, he charged out into the hall. He was disappointed when nothing was going on in the hall, but quickly lifted his spirits by pretending to fly to the elevator. Echoing the ding when the door opened, he hopped inside and spun in a full circling saying, “Whaaaa!” before he pushed the button that would take him to the lobby.
When the door slid open, he ran out into the lobby to witness one of the buildings tenants being attacked by a group of three biting men. Her screams grew weaker and weaker as blood sprayed into the air from her neck where a large patch of skin was missing and an artery had been ruptured. The blood landed on his bright green boots and ran down the side to pool around his feet as he stood in shock before he took action.
Screaming, he darted across the hall, bravely facing the mailbox monster to attack the men consuming the woman. He slammed his fist into the back of one of the men’s heads and his fist sank into the man’s skull. He shook it off in disgust, drawing the attention of the other two men as he did so. They shuffled away from the woman, allowing her dead, bloody, limp body to fall to the floor, hissing at him.
Their eyes were cloudy and parts of their faces were missing. They walked awkwardly and drooled blood out of their wide-open mouths.
“You c…c…cursed creatures won’t g…g…get the best of m…m…me!” Billy Jack shouted, and reached out and grabbing both of the men’s heads, slamming them together.
They burst like two overly ripe melons under the pressure of the collision; chunks of brain and clotted, black blood flew in every direction.
He pulled his hands away and let the bodies drop to the floor.
“Ew,” he said, looking down at the pile of bodies in front of him and at the mess they’d made. “I sh…sh…should clean this m…m…mess up, but I h…h…have to save Mike!”
Turning, he darted toward the door to the stairwell, but slipped in pooled blood and fell back onto the pile of death.
He screamed and kicked, trying to fight his way out of the slop. Finally rolling off, he crawled to the door to the stairs, breathing heavily. Being a superhero is harder than I thought it would be, he thought, holding onto the door handle while he regained his footing. Pulling open the door, he headed into the darkness and almost felt like he was being swallowed whole by the building itself, so he started singing the song that always gave him courage when he had to do big things that scared him: Itsy-Bitsy-Spider.
With his whispering voice echoing off the stark walls, Billy Jack climbed the stairs as fast as he could, slipping occasionally because the blood dripping from his clothes and onto the worn-smooth stairs made them slicker than normal.
As he reached the fourth floor landing, he heard a low moan echo around him. He froze, not knowing what to do, but knowing someone else was close-by. He felt along the wall for the door leading to the fourth floor hallway, and looked through the gloom created by the wane moonlight seeping in through the small, dirty, barred windows high in the walls. His hand reached the handle as he heard a louder moan and a thumping noise of something falling down stairs and a deep groan; it sounded closer. He raised his eyes to the fifth floor landing as his hand gripped the door handle tighter; something was moving around up there, groaning. It had to be another of the biting people.
The form slowly stood and limped to the edge of the landing, looking down at Billy Jack. It groaned loudly and tried to walk forward, falling down the stairs right at him.
Billy Jack screamed, yanked the door open, and darted onto the fourth floor of the building. Making sure the door was shut tight behind him, he spun and darted, not paying attention to anything around him. He slammed into a woman and pinned her against the wall with all of his weight.
She gasped and then purred, “Hold on, sugar, and I’ll give you anything you want.” Her hand—which was caught between them—cupped his crotch.
Billy Jack cried out and backed away. “Why d…d…did you touch me th…th…there?” he whimpered, holding his hands over his penis like he had to pee.
The woman laughed and advanced toward him, looking him over. “You pay me enough I’ll give you what you really want.” She traced the B and J on his chest with her finger. “You like BJs, don’t you?” she teased, and then frowned. “Why are you all wet?”
Holding her hand up at an angle to the faint hallway light, she saw her hand was covered with blood; she looked down and discovered her body was also coated in blood where his had touched hers when he’d pinned her to the wall.
“It’s blood!” she screamed, and darted for the stairwell door.
Billy Jack yelled, “No!” and tried to stop her from opening the door, but it was too late.
“Holy shit, a zombie!” she yelped, and tried turning back to Billy Jack, who was standing, panting, in the hall.
He glimpsed the stark fear in her eyes as the man she’d identified as a zombie fell on her from behind, pinning her to the floor. She screamed and kicked, but it was too late, the monster’s teeth had sunk into her flesh and she was bleeding.
Billy Jack was scared, still standing in the hall, cupping his privates, in shock over what had happened so quickly. He knew he needed to get back out into the stairwell to keep climbing and save Mike. To reach the stairs he would have to go through the zombie attacking the strange, almost naked, woman who liked to touch people in their no-no-special places.
Tugging at the front of his union suit, he decided he would have to stop the zombie from hurting the woman, or else he wouldn’t be a real superhero—they saved everyone.
With a roar, he charged forward, getting the zombie’s attention; it lifted its head at the noise. Hopping slightly, he planted one foot hard on the floor and kicked with the other like he’d seen football players do on TV when they were kicking a field goal. His kicking foot connected with the zombie’s chin, snapping its head back and almost off as its rotting flesh tore.
The woman was still alive and sobbing uncontrollably, so Billy Jack dragged the zombie off of the woman and helped her up. She was weak and wobbled back and forth.
“You n…n…need to rest, m…m…ma’am,” he said, leaning her up against the wall; she slid down, sitting hard on her butt when he let her go. “I h…h…have to save Mike.”
Billy Jack opened the door to the stairwell a little further—the zombie’s legs were holding it open slightly—and he disappeared into the oppressive gloom once again. He was now scared there would be more of the zombie creatures on the stairs somewhere waiting to get him, so he ran up the five flights of stairs to the ninth floor. Ripping open the door, he carefully stepped into the hallway and looked around before closing the door behind himself.
The hall was silent; there was no sound of anyone anywhere, not even noise from TVs in the apartments. The moon cast shadows along the corridor and made Billy Jack more and more nervous. He tugged at the front of his union suit, accidentally popping off a button, but he didn’t notice. He was focused on the scary world around him, gulping and whimpering in succession. The idea of being a superhero had been fun when the world was safe and he was only dealing with his imagination, but it was more difficult than he’d anticipated, and more scary. He finally reached apartment 947 and what he found didn’t improve his spirits any.
A smeared, bloody hand print was bright on the wide-open door. From within the apartment he heard growling and the wet sound of something eating, along with soft whimpers. Tentatively, he stepped over the threshold and beheld a gruesome sight on the kitchen floor.
Mike’s bare feet were twitching and bouncing off the floor as his mother and some man Billy Jack didn’t know—both naked—ate his small body. The whimpers were Mike’s and Billy Jack realized he was still alive. Rage and grief surged through him and he screamed at the zombies.
“S…s…stop hurting my f…f…friend!”
He stormed into the room and grabbed the man, wrapping his hands around his neck, squeezing with all his strength. The man hadn’t been a zombie long, so he wasn’t rotting, but when Billy Jack gave him a quick jerk in his fury, his spine snapped just below his skull and he went still. Throwing the limp body off to the side, Billy Jack kicked Mike’s mom in the head; she had been too interested in eating her son to pay attention to what was going on around her. He picked her up by the shoulders and slammed her against the wall screaming at her for being a bad mother, until her skull cracked and a wet slapping sound rang through the kitchen each time she hit the wall. With tears running down his cheeks, Billy Jack let her fall to the floor as well, and turned to kneel down beside Mike.
His little body was quivering as he took each breath. Blood was oozing from his body and soaking into the scraps of what used to be his clothes. “Billy Jack,” he whispered, “thank you for saving me.”
Billy Jack was too choked up with tears to respond and slid his arm under his small friend’s head, hugging him close, rocking gently.
After a couple more shaky intakes of air, Mike stopped breathing altogether.
Billy Jack continued to rock him, wailing, mourning his friend more than he’d mourned his father; they’d been closer and had a real bond.
He was too caught up in his grief to notice all the noise he was making had attracted more zombies. Three of them came shambling through the door and were clawing at him before he knew what was going on. In his grief, he batted their clawing hands away, but only half-heartedly. With Mike gone he didn’t care what happened to him. He snapped back to reality when the small body moved in his arms, moaning insistently. Sudden sharp pains from his neck, chest, and arm caused him to cry out and stand. He jumped back and dropped Mike on the blood-soaked floor; his once angelic face was twisted in blood lust.
“Mike?” Billy Jack stammered, barely noticing the small boy had bitten him, as had two others of the undead ranks. “A…a…are you okay?”
Mike hissed and tried to stand, but the damage to his body had been too extensive; the middle of his body was gone, all the way to his spinal cord. With a harsh grunt, the zombie boy flipped himself over onto his front and flopped like a fish toward Billy Jack, licking what little blood he’d drawn from his tiny lips.
“N…n…no!” Billy Jack sobbed, backing away.
One of the other zombies had finally had enough of everything and lunged at Billy Jack.
He jumped and dodged the sudden movement, only to slip in the huge puddle of blood on the floor and fall hard.
All three of the adult zombies piled onto him, tearing skin and muscle with their teeth and devouring sweet, hot flesh, but Billy Jack didn’t even cry out with pain. His eyes were locked with the now cloudy eyes of Mike as he flopped closer and closer. He was crying and was slipping into shock, seeing his once best friend turn into a blood thirsty creature was just too much.
By the time Mike finally reached Billy Jack, he was weak from loss of blood, but the zombie didn’t care because it worked to his advantage. He growled and purred down at his meal like the man was a steak and not a friend.
“I’m s…s…sorry, Mike,” Billy Jack whispered. “I’m s…s…sorry I didn’t m…m…make it here in t…t…time. I’m sorry I c…c…couldn’t be your s…s…superhero. I g…g…guess I’m a w…w…worthless nothing l…l…like my dad s…s…said…”
Mike’s mouth closed around Billy Jack’s throat, cutting off his air. Pulling back, he tore off a small chunk of flesh, but his small teeth had done the job. They’d found an artery, and soon Billy Jack wasn’t suffering any longer and the zombies drank their fill of his bloody, until he too rose again to feast on the living.
About the story:
This story was originally written sometime between 2010-2015 for a superhero themed zombie anthology from Living Dead Press. I also wrote a similar story in a rural setting; both appeared in the anthology. The Heart of Heroism has been residing as a bonus story in my short story collection: Twisted Pathways of Murder & Death. It is being removed from the collection as I’m currently revamping the title. This story has been re-edited into the 2023 version you read above.
Copyright © Rebecca Besser 2023